To my Fiance Before our Marriage

You ask me what I am afraid of… 

That’s exactly the problem:

I don’t know. 

I don’t know what the future holds. 

I don’t know what we will do.

I don’t know where we will be.

I don’t know how we will live. 

I don’t know if you will think I’m pretty in 10 years. (For that matter, I don’t know if I will think I’m pretty in 10 years)

What if we can’t have kids? What if all we do is fight? 

What if God is putting us together only to take one of us away?

I don’t know if I can be your safe place. 

I don’t know if I can make our house a home.

I don’t know how to be a wife or a mom. 

I don’t exactly know how to cook.

But, I do know a few things:

God holds our future.

He knows where we will live. 

He knows what we will do. 

He will provide for all our needs.

You are my safe place.

You love me like Jesus; even when I mess up. 

You forgive me like HE forgives me. 

You don’t mind going out to eat.

I know home is where we will have tears and laughter together. 

I know I never want to waste a minute with you.

I know holding your hand will never get old.

I know:

I love you.